Your grandparents left today. Grandpa Bill and Grandma Julie. They were here the last 3 weeks. They originally planned to be here that long to spend time with you. I miss them already. Your grandma was going to watch you while I was at work. It was difficult for all of us to feel the obvious, empty void that was missing from their visit. You. But at the same time it was so wonderful to spend time with them. We talked about you almost non-stop. Sometimes it was through tears. Sometimes it was through pain. Misery. Disbelief. But, most of the time it was through joy. The unbelievable joy and fun we all had preparing for you. We were all so innocent and naive when I was pregnant with you. Everything was just blissful and happy. Thank you for those times, baby Stella. They were some of the best times in all of our lives.
We are all grieving for you. All day, everyday. We will never "accept" this loss. But we will come together as a family and move forward, not move on. But forward. We have to, life keeps going. We have no choice and we all know you wouldn't want us to stay where we are, suffering. Our family is loving and strong. We always have each other. We have faith in God and you. We will somehow survive.
I love you, Stella St. Clair.
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