We have decided we are not envious of those who know no heartache, suffering, or pain. They will feel the wrath and misery of life on this earth one way or another, someday. No one gets out of here unscathed. We are not envious of those who are naive and innocent. Although, we will never know those feelings again. We still wouldn't our trade our lives or this experience that God has decided to give us. This is who we are and where we are supposed to be. We simply cannot change it, so we will stand up and deal with it. Luckily, we have been given each other to go though this most unfortunate, unbelievable life together. Many couples don't survive it, trust me when I say this. God doesn't make all couples strong enough to handle such a life, I'm certain. However, at the same time, I know God himself didn't do this to us. He is truly grieving with us. But, thankfully He did give me a husband and life partner that is strong enough to stand up with me, help me through this challenging card we've been dealt, and take this life head on. We will be better people, more understanding spouses, and the most patient parents…someday, God willing. Thanks to God, I have the most amazing husband in the world.
There are many people in this world who experience extreme amounts of pain. Their pain will never be our pain. And our pain will never be their pain.
Does this mean we are done mourning and being heartbroken over the loss of our precious baby girl…not a chance. We are just working our way through realizing that Stella is truly gone, forever. Stella is in Heaven, waiting for us, and we cannot wait until the day we get to see her again.
Matthew 5:4 Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
Grieving from your perfect, empty nursery tonight... Stella St. Clair.
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