18 more Mondays

As of today, I'm officially halfway through this pregnancy. Our rainbow baby has been baking for 19 weeks, and since I'll deliver at 38 weeks at the very latest, we literally only have 19 weeks left.... At the very most. It's hard to believe we're half way through, but it's even harder to believe I still have 19 long weeks left. How am I ever going to make it that much longer?! Because even though we are halfway through, we didn't even know we were pregnant those first 4 weeks, so we've only known I was pregnant for 15 weeks, meaning I literally have more time left in this pregnancy than we've gone through thus far!! That's so much time. So instead of thinking of it like that, I'm going to try to get my crazy, anxious mind to think a little differently. Since I'm apparently into counting weeks, to say I only have 18 Mondays left, at the most, sounds more like something I can handle. Only 18 more Mondays until it's Monday, December 1st. That glorious Monday, that we are so anxiously awaiting. Can we make it 18 more Mondays? As if we have a choice. Baby has been moving a lot lately and we've been able to feel her daily since about 17 weeks, even daddy. It's the best feeling in the world, feeling the life growing inside of you. And very reassuring too. We get to say, "well, we know baby's still alive, at least right now." Keep it up baby.

You've been making yourself present a lot lately, baby Stella, and we much appreciate it. The other day when I tried to wear a different necklace besides yours to work, you certainly let me know how you felt about that. It took about all I had to even put on another necklace and it almost made me sick. Everything just felt off. Shortly after I put the other necklace on, I almost fell down putting my wedges on, almost put the garage door down on my car while driving out of the garage, and ran a red light on my way to work. Thankfully, I was rattled enough before leaving the house, I had gone back inside and grabbed your necklace, which I immediately put back on when I barely arrived safely at work. Yes, I'm aware it's just a necklace, but it somehow makes me feel closer to you and like I'm always carrying a part of you with me. After telling your daddy about my morning, he said, "all of this happened while you were not wearing Stella's necklace? Then, put the necklace back on!!" Love him. We've seen the date November 6th a few times on a few different things. I see 9:41 and 11:06 on the clock every single day. At least one of them, at least once a day, if not both times, both day and night.

Gosh, we love you baby girl. It's such an amazing feeling of peace to know you're near, watching over us and your baby sibling. Baby Stella, help us survive 18 more Mondays, until we meet our rainbow.