Mother's Day

Mother's Day. A day when the world tells you to appreciate your mom (that part is easy, if you have a mom).  A day the rest of the world believes was created to make people feel good. Yet, it's a day that is so painful for so many, for so many different reasons. And like most holidays, the lucky people don't have to think about this pain or the people experiencing this pain. The pain of missing someone. A baby. A child. Their own mother. Or maybe they never had either. Most go on thinking this is a wonderful, happy day. A day filled with nothing but joy. 

Those naive people also don't know the origin of Mother's Day. Before Mother's Day was commercialized the way it is today… It was created by Anna Jarvis, to honor her mother who lost 7 children. Anna wanted a day that honored her mother for still getting up each day and living without her children. With only being able to carry them in her heart. And now it's a day to celebrate mothers of living children. Funny how things change when something terribly sad is involved. People don't want to think about it or deal with it, so they move on.

I miss you today like every day, baby girl. Although we cannot be together today, nothing will ever change the fact that you made me a mom. And thank you for that. I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. And I hope to be half the mother my mom is, when and if I'm ever truly given the chance. 

A poem was sent to me from the Bereavement Services at the hospital you were delivered at, baby girl. It's a sad place to get mail from, but I thought this one was sweet.

A Mother's Day Ode

I am your mother, but you, my child, I cannot

hold.

It'll get easier with time, or so I'm told.

People may forget that I am your mother. 

I'm part of a secret club we only share with one

another.

But that doesn't diminish my love for you.

I think of you the whole day through.

I wonder what you're doing, my Precious Little

One.

We are connected by an Infinite bond which 

cannot come undone.

I will not let Death tear us apart.

I promise to always keep you alive in my heart.